An open letter to all who loved . . . THE LOVE, of our lives
Jason Riley Millikan
August 1st, 1993 to December 30th, 2013

Suicide sucks. It leaves us with most unbearable pain imaginable. It leaves us with questions we should never have to ask ourselves and it is oh – so very, very final.
Please don't ask yourselves why. There is no why. Please don't wonder what if . . . those questions will do nothing but torment you . . . and you should know Jason would not want any of us to suffer like that. We all deal with regret. Although for each of us the obstacles of life are different, they are each still very much real. Understand that as long as you live and breathe those issues can be dealt with. Most things CAN be undone. However you cannot escape THIS: Suicide permanently steals all of your hope and all of your dreams. It robs all who love you and care for you of the precious gift OF YOU! It is one thing that can NOT be undone.
Our baby, our love, your friend, your cousin, your nephew, Rob's, Kath's and Steph's kid, Grandpa, your Grandson, Devin, the love of Jace's life, your best friend – Is back, and resting in the arms of his HEAVEANLY FATHER, just exactly where he started . . . He has no more pain, no more sorrow, no more Demons. . . NO MORE FEAR!
From the day he was born in August 1993, Rob and I have always believed Jason Riley was on loan to us. Thanks to the beautiful gift Stephanie extended to us through adoption, we had the joy of Jason in our lives. He was our gift, and what a precious and beautiful gift he was. We know we were blessed! We are grateful to have had him for the 20 plus years we did. The memories he gave us are also precious and will hold us up, until we are with him again, forever.
Jason had the security of knowing and having accepted Jesus Christ as his Savior. As we all know there is evil in this world, and it wants to overwhelm you and destroy you. Pain and confusion are stark reminders. Recognize that these are signs that you cannot handle life on your own. Jason knew we loved him immensely. We know how much he loves us. But for reasons we won't know until we are reunited together with him and our Lord, Jason couldn't share with us what was tormenting him. The book of Jeremiah quotes our Heavenly Father saying "I know the plans I have for you, to prosper you and not to harm you". You can have that promise and security too if you seek Him. Please honor the Jason we all love, and learn from this moment. Reach out to those who lift you up, who see the best in you and that know what you are capable of.